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Wilkommen to my blog - if you're looking for ramblings on life as a junior doctor, my attempts to dual-moonlight as a scientist and balancing all that madness with a life, you've come to the right place. I'm currently a doctor/research trainee in the UK after spending a year doing research in the USA. All original content is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution 4.0 International License.

Friday, 16 October 2015

The Art of Procrastination

There is a myth I am always keen to dispel about doctors and academics.  

Yes, we work hard.  But my, are we also experts in the Art of Procrastination.  

If there were an award for procrastination, I surely would be up there as a worthy candidate.  There is virtually no limit to where my mind can wander when I have things to do.  Today alone I read about Mendlessohn, caught up on world news from a variety of different newspaper sources, wrote a couple of cards (including an overdue one to Granny Deutschland  *hangs head in shame*), explored the 'related artists' relevant to the composer I was listening to on Spotify and hit refresh on my emails about 30 times.  
Surely a wonderful place to procrastinate?
BUT.  I also rearranged a spreadsheet and finished a paper I've had on my 'to do' list for weeks - hurrah!  I procrastinated my heart out in the USA - plotting my travels, writing long emails to family/friends in between incubations, scribbling in my journal, reading good things, reading utter crap, listening to new music, listening to music I haven't listened to since I was a teenager.  This had other side effects. I was extremely prompt with answering emails.  I was more on the ball with my family and friends' lives.  I was infinitely less stressed.  I allowed myself time to feel happy or sad or crazy or sloth-like.  I came to really appreciate the value of what some might consider *wasting time*.  No-one EVER believes me when I talk about my procrastinating tendencies, but I promise that it's true.  I am Queen of Ruminations, Princess of Thinking and Great Dame of Ponderances.  

I've just come off a pretty intense seven week spell at work and I feel like I've become a terrible friend, rubbish daughter/sister/auntie, unreliable academic correspondent (it sounds like such a lame excuse when you write 'I'm on call' for the millionth time) and frankly boring in the process, despite all best attempts to sustain musical, cultural and generally human activities during my free time.  Is my lack of procrastination time to blame?

Apparently procrastination is an entire topic of interest for psychology scholars, and I found this article really tickled my guilt around day dreaming.  Authors write of choosing current enjoyment over work - prioritising pleasure now over pleasure in the future, or 'failing to identify fully with your future self'.  Hmm.  I'm not sure I agree.  Of course one needs to find a way to stay on track - I'd never get anything done if my sole activity was procrastination - but by allowing some 'air time' between intense academic thoughts, perhaps we stay more whole as people. Some of my best science ideas came over a procrastination chat with friends, or a musing had whilst reading a random editorial.   Ultimately, procrastinating hasn't really done me any harm; if anything, I feel the opposite.  In contrast, clinical medicine offers little space for procrastination.  There is barely time for emotions, let alone reading or exploring (well, certainly not during working hours).  I worry that makes us forget that getting lost in your feelings and thoughts is important and 'allowed'.  I guess our clinical moments of procrastination are treasured in between seeing patients and during precious tea/food breaks.  I've just come off another bunch of nights and it is amazing how you spend 13 hours with people that start off as colleagues, and by the end of it are at the very least acquaintances and more often than not friends.  But I'm not sure that's really procrastinating - perhaps just staying sane and injecting some much needed giggling into our nocturnal existence!

Procrastinating during my post-nights zero hours/annual leave is proving most fruitful.  I'm uncertain, I'm uncentred, I'm still lost, and I'm still working out how this eye-opened doctor is supposed to fit as a brick in the wall of the NHS.  But strangely, I'm taking the slowness of my reacclimatisation to the UK and life as a doctor to be a positive thing - life has generally taught me that the things that are the hardest are generally the things that offer the greatest reward.  So perhaps I'm 'failing to identify fully with my future self' with full and unashamed procrastination through a variety of media - perhaps that's because I'm still working out who she is - 'my future self'!

Saturday, 26 September 2015

The Truth about being a Junior Doctor

I haven't really said very much about the Junior Doctors' Contract furore that is currently dominating every thread of social media I participate in.

You know why? Ironically, because I'm either at work, or exhausted from being at work.

I have always maintained that doctors are not special cases when it comes to the argument of 'we work hard, we deserve to be rewarded for that'.  I also hate whining or all-round negative vibes.  So instead I will stick with my realities and let you decide.

I am twenty seven years old.  I qualified as a doctor when I was twenty four (pretty much on the dot!).  In that time I have been bled on, urinated on, nearly hit by confused patients, shouted at by other stressed colleagues, performed CPR on dozens of chests, stuck needles in hundreds of arms, tried to make life-saving decisions at every hour of the day and night, kept patients comfortable in their final days and hours, been present at or confirmed more deaths than I care to think of, and looked into the eyes of the confused, weary, sick, dying and hurting and tried to find the right words and actions to ease their pain.  I have missed weddings, birthdays and Christmas.  I have cried out of pure tiredness, in frustration and in absorbed grief from the clinical situation in front of me. I have done quality improvement projects, audits, presentations, research papers, teaching (bedside, lectures, tutorials, ward rounds... you name it), exams (yes, postgraduate exams continue) and further training courses around all of that, often at my own expense both financially and time-wise.  A Consultant asked me recently what other work activities I was doing outside my clinical job - these extra things are not for 'bonus points' - they are seen as essential and the norm.

Time away from this has made me see that that's all not very normal, and I think the reason junior doctors are so angry about the new Junior Doctors' Contract is the same reason why teachers get so frustrated by the latest change in their curricula or contracts.  I heavily resent being told by someone who has never faced the situations I have outlined above (often at 3am, or at the end of a 13-hour shift) what my job is 'like' or what it's 'about'.  I *think* I am good at it; I try very hard to be, and to get better.  I don't choose my hours to earn more money, or pick which of the 1-in-4 weekends I'm at work, or which of the evenings each week I stay at work til 10pm (plus any additionals that just sort of 'happen' if people are sick).  I go to my job because I love it, but you don't experience the challenge of treating very sick people and looking death in the face and the distress of peoples' families without giving something that government ministers cannot convince me they understand.
I major in sunsets these days...
I reiterate, this is not a moan, more a reality check from the perspective of one junior doctor.  The negativity in hospitals amongst junior doctors is tangible, and yet they still give 100% to their patients because it is good and right to do so.

When I was working over a weekend recently, I found myself with a cluster of other junior doctors on the same ward all dealing with separate but sick patients.  It was 9.30pm on the Sunday evening, and we had all been working all of the previous week (plus an additional evening), 13 hours on the Saturday and were reaching the end of another 13 hours on the Sunday.  We all had a full week plus at least one additional evening on call ahead of us.  And there we were, a bunch of twenty-somethings, giving it 150% to make these patients better - organising blood tests and X-rays, talking to families, calling other specialties for advice, giving drugs and waiting to see if they worked before making the next intervention - working with passion and pushing past the fatigue.  In between phone calls and writing in the notes, we would share a little of our current clinical dilemma and the day we had had, and try and find a few smiles and giggles to keep us going.  I felt so, so proud at that moment to be a junior doctor.

And I am proud, not just of me but of the NHS.  I am twenty seven years old.  I am a junior doctor.  I love my job and all the things it makes me feel and see.  It is an absolute privilege.  But I also have a brain, and I'm not afraid to use it.  

Thursday, 20 August 2015

Glorious Insignificance of the Medical SHO

There is a school of thought that you are either a soul of the mountains or a soul of the sea.

I still can't work out which category I fall into.  When I think of the mountains, I think of feeling lost amidst Milky Way-speckled nights in the Andes, or many, many hikes, soaked to the skin but somehow gloriously refreshed, up various British hills and mountains. But then, I think of times spent by the ocean - perhaps most pertinently the Pacific, once upon a time diving in, as well as more recently gazing upon and swimming in - where you also feel marvellously insignificant.  I like that plenty too.

After a week and a half back in the NHS as a junior doctor (for those who want to pin point it - a Core Medical Trainee, or Academic Clinical Fellow if we're being fancy) - I'm once again Dr Karin Purshouse.  I'm exhausted and full of some sort of viral plague but amazed at what my little brain has been able to retain despite ten months away from having three bleeping machines attached to me, people hollering 'DOCTOR! Doctor!' and not (at least significantly) eating/drinking/peeing for 14 hours.

And really, I can completely feel the difference a year away from it all has made.  I am about ten thousand times more relaxed, and feel calmer, nay, wiser, about the things I do and don't know about clinical medicine.  As predicted, I'm every bit the OCD check-a-holic I was pre-USA, but I'll just believe my lovely zany colleague who commented, 'well Karin, that's what makes you a medic'.  It's a little like getting into a time machine though - colleagues who were junior to you are now your equal in seniority terms; those who were middle grades like me are now registrars, registrars are now consultants (do I call them by their first names like I always did, or Dr So-and-so?!).  Simultaneously, nurses remember you, and you them.  The same nurses are the ones you trust to be your eyes and ears across the multiple wards under your lone responsibility at night time; the ones you will always come running for if they say you need to start running.  The same ones will hand you the patient's notes with one hand and a cup of tea with the other as you approach the end of your night shift, brain and vocal ability only just about still intact.

I am not the same, it turns out, as those who stayed when I left.  For one thing, I'm still smiling - my supervisor marvelled at how happy I looked a week in, despite various administrative disasters making my return a little more complicated.  I'm the crazy SHO who high-fives the nurses when we've kept three really sick patients alive together all night, or asks even the hospital canteen staff 'hi there, how are you' (this is VERY American, it turns out), or, shock horror, goes to a yoga class, dinner with new friends or a concert AFTER WORK.  Life seems extremely colourful once you decide to approach it America-style.

I still feel like a tourist in my own country, but that's ok - I'm finding plenty of new chums with whom to enjoy the ride, and equally finding moments of peace in the American books I am still working my way through, perching time by/in various waterways or nerding out at science seminars.  You can feel pretty insignificant in the NHS, but then, perhaps it's like when you feel insignificant in the mountains or the sea - it's about how you choose to approach and interpret that insignificance, and rather marvel at the greater structure you are part of.  Sure, it's a bit of a change going from the mind-boggling world of glioma gene editing to worrying about Mr Bloggs' bowel movements, but you know what? That's important too.  And the great thing about being a clinician scientist is that each side of that professional coin informs the other, and helps you keep your perspective on the coin as a whole.

I've stolen this from Freckle Volume 1, and I think it's pretty bloody wonderful.
West Coasting - where ocean and mountains meet!
'Society, as we have constituted it, will have no place for me, has none to offer, but Nature, whose sweet rains fall on unjust and just alike, will have clefts in the rocks where I may hide, and secret valleys in whose silence I may weep undisturbed. She will hang the night with stars so that I may walk abroad in the darkness without stumbling and send the wind over my footprints so that none may track me to my hurt - she will cleanse me in great waters, and with bitter herbs make me whole' - Oscar Wilde, De Profundis

Disclaimer: Mr Bloggs is obviously not a real patient name. 

Tuesday, 4 August 2015

Red, White and Blue Wednesday - not Black Wednesday!

Tomorrow I go back to school.  My American tax return is finally filed.  My American bank account is closed.  My American phone contract has expired.  I have packed up my remnant things (which essentially amount to a significantly-culled selection of clothes... photos... books... my violin... and my trusted collection of international fabrics) and am back where it all began to start again, again.  My stethoscope, now entering its 10th year of life, is in desperate need of replacement (perfectly functional, you understand, but a girl can dream of a Cardiology Littman upgrade...) but shall, as it always has, see me right as I re-enter the clinical world on Black Wednesday.

This junior doctor has been re-acclimatising to this drizzly, chilly but occasionally sun-kissed, sparkling land.  I feel a little like a tourist in my own country, but this period of 'tourism' and catch-ups with very special friends and family, as well as all-important solo reflections, have helped focus the mind for the next part of my little life journey.  I return to a beautiful city with a refreshed outlook on what's important and renewed resolve to listen to myself a little more.  Eek.  I am more than a little daunted about another fresh start - strangely way more scared than when I moved to the States!  I have enjoyed celebrating the joys of the lives of wonderful friends and family before and since my time in the USA; now it's time for me to get on with my own.

A most wonderful friend soon to start her own overseas adventure reminded me recently amidst a small anxious moment re 'returning home' - nothing, including stress, is permanent; it is just a state of mind and a reaction to a situation, and this will pass.  And with that; I will keep some important words in my mind - Gold Guide, and Out Of Programme Experience....  Perhaps this is why people shouldn't take gap years - once you pop, it's hard to stop!  
Citadel and a Ghanaian reunion
Mussenden, NI
Sunset at Helen's Bay, NI
Womad! Chai, Senegalese dancing and a serious dose of mud. 
10 months on - Wiltshire's still looking all green and great :)

Friday, 17 July 2015


How else to kick off celebrating 4th July?
A far cry from drizzly England! SB, CA.
When I was very little (well, as little as I ever was. Single digits.), The Magic Faraway Tree series by Enid Blyton were amongst my favourite books.  The Magic Faraway Tree is found by a group of children, and is inhabited by a series of characters (Moonface, the Saucepan Man, Dame Wash-a-lot...).  At the top of the tree is a magical land that changes every few days.  The Land of Toys, the Land of Dreams, the Land of Presents... But when it is time for the Land to move on and change, a wind blows and the children have to run back down into the tree as fast as they can, lest they get stuck in the Land after it moves on.  Then, they wait until the next land appears for them to explore.
Ojai, CA - home of delicious
organic wines and this gem
of a spot.

Replace 'Lands' with 'Countries' and that's roughly how it feels to leave a place where you've created a home and plonk yourself back in the throes of a life you once recognised.  A friend recently described it as 'confusion/sadness/excitement/boredom/exhaustion' - a perfect summary!  Made weirder by interesting quirks such as my new phone refreshing as if it were the day I left for the USA - talk about a time warp!  People prepare you for the culture shock of moving abroad - now that I'm a few days in, they somewhat omit to mention the culture shock of moving back...  Plus, shockingly, it's administratively rather complicated moving countries (and jobs) - surprising, huh?!  Super grateful for the diverse selection of friends, close and often not-so-close, who have been in touch and made me feel less of a freak by relating their emotions, often hilarious, from when they moved back after an extended stay overseas.  People are great :)

Julia Pfeiffer point, Big Sur, CA
Morro Bay, CA. More of this next year!
I can scarcely believe 9 1/2 months can go so fast.  Some people have a baby in that time; I moved across an ocean, made a home and then moved back to start another one.  Life-changing in a different way... but life-changing nonetheless.  In less than three weeks I'll be back to being Dr Karin Purshouse - with weekends, night shifts and evenings on call, if you were in any doubt Mr Hunt - yikes.  The negativity from my medical chums is pretty overwhelming.  Lots to think about, but one thing I have learned: living abroad is awesome.  From the friends I made to the things I experienced, from the emotions it brought out in me to the things it made my brain explore, living in the USA was so much more than I could ever have imagined.  I actually loved being a funny foreigner, and what it taught me about myself as well as the world in general.  I am by no means alarmed by the idea of doing it again in the future.  For some reason, that makes returning to the UK and medical life seem a lot less scary.  I will not let my spirit be squashed before I've even started, especially not for a job I love so much!

Right.  I'm off to adjust to this crazy country I'm meant to call 'home' and continue to 'sort my life out'.  One thing is for sure; apart from one SWIMS exception, I am refusing to say goodbye to ANYONE ELSE for a very long time!
Ciao, NYC!

Thursday, 2 July 2015


I've been reading a LOT recently on my solo tour d'USA (although apparently when you're a solo traveller with a British accent in the USA, you might as well be a people magnet... a handy time to be bilingual!).

I return the pastry pro! Learning the art of a
perfect pastry for tarts and crostatas in the
German quarter Chicago, IL.
I like books about people.  I like books that put historical or human events into context with the qualities and traits that enhance and hamper us all, from the most loving and wonderful to the ugly, selfish parts of human nature.  The reasons why I love certain books could be a post in itself - and it might seem surprising that what prompted this blog post was the book I read first and enjoyed the least out of my ongoing reading splurge.  'Wild', now made famous by a certain film, is the autobiographical tale of a woman who hikes the Pacific Crest Trail as a sort of hiking mission to heal her past, a pilgrimage of salvation.  On paper (no puns intended), I should have loved this book.  It took me a while to work out why it didn't 'click' with me - and I think it all comes down to the conclusion of the book: of being lost, and that being resolved, and that being a positive thing.  

When asked off the cuff recently if my time in America had changed me, I rather arrogantly and with little deep thought replied - 'No'.  Which in many ways is true.  I'm still all the things I was when I came to this side of the pond; hopefully just an enhanced, more wide-eyed, more contemplative version.  But something is different - and it's taken me a while to put my finger on it - and I think I'm getting closer to working it out.  Perhaps part of it is this:

For the first time, I am joyously, and contentedly, lost.  

Chicago - city of the best date and bacon rolls, free summer
concerts and ... oh so much else.  Under-rated place.  
As a medical student, then a doctor, and intermittently a scientist, everything is about control.  As a medical student, it was the transition of being the science nerd at a performing arts school to being an incredibly mediocre wannabe doctor.  It was then realising you could do that and fit in this, that, and the other (music, hiking and medical politics in my case, amongst other things!) around all of that if you were organised.  As a doctor, you are controlling your ever increasing list of jobs to do, and organising it in logical fashion with both safety and efficiency in mind.  When your patient dies, you have to control your emotions, or find an appropriate time to 'let them out', but these moments are usually short-lived.  If you are tearing your hair out, starving, thirsty and exhausted, after 13 hours of being dragged around seven floors of a hospital at the whim of several beeping machines attached to you, there is no time for frustrated tears (although believe me, I've shed plenty) - your mind is expected to be as sharp as it was on first waking.  As a scientist, any amount of panic or hysteria, unless kept in check, will spill over into failed experiments.  Calculations and cell plating require concentration and absolute precision to get your cell numbers even close to accurate.  A slip up, which might only be discovered weeks down the line, means time, money and sanity down the drain.  In all three domains - student, doctor, scientist - there are also incessant exams to juggle, where failure feels neither to be acceptable nor an option and thus self-discipline and more control are required; and that's before you have time to worry about life events throwing you a curve ball.  None of these are bad things, by the way - they are arguably necessary, and have contributed hugely to my growth as a person.  BUT....

The Acknowledgements slide for the Bindra lab for the next
3 years! Bye Bye Bindra lab :(
Ever since I finished full-time doctoring nearly a year ago, life has been alive, awake and bright, right from the two months of being a part-time/sometime locum doctor in a city I would struggle to love more.  Here in America, I've had(/made!) time to enjoy my job, but also explore, make new friends (as well as nurture, properly, old ones), and stretch my brain like an elastic band in every imaginable direction - art, music, sport, cooking, testing the extent to which I can trash my knees, science, even poetry.  I'm hugely enjoying how with each year I get older, I expect more and more from myself in terms of my brain and body, and, even if it isn't in reality, more seems possible.  Anything seems possible! The other day I had a 'pinch me now' moment when I was walking through the sunny Old Campus at Yale University with the bells playing their daily selection of harmonies for one of the last times before returning to Oxford, and realising that both of those places feel... comfortable, and like I belong.  WHAT?!  I'm just some girl who got off the country bus from Wiltshire!  And I know I am BEYOND lucky that mine has been a life without the adversities that prevent others from such participation, and hence I try to embrace it as best I can whilst maintaining the roles that supersede any personal ambitions - friend, sister, daughter, granddaughter, Auntie.  

Iconic lovin'.  By the USS
Midway, San Diego, CA.
Maybe you're reading this and thinking - 'gosh, I don't want her as my doctor now!  I liked the version that was in control!  Not the one that's lost!'.  Well, maybe you can be both.  I will still be the slightly OCD SHO(/junior resident)-on-call with the neatly quarter-folded piece of A4 paper (one quarter for each ward under my responsibility - both sides, naturally) who will make little square tick-boxes alongside the jobs to be done.  I will still occasionally run back into the hospital from the car-park because I'll think I've forgotten to check a blood test (and every time realise that OF COURSE I have).  I'm still the efficient half-German I always was.  But I like the fact that 'life certainties' - perhaps worries - that existed in my mind are no longer there.  I have no idea where I'll be ten years from now, in life, professionally and the world - and that's hugely liberating.  We spend so much time as junior doctors being expected to 'know' and feeling guilty when we don't - I've found it incredibly refreshing to realise and embrace just how much I don't know, about myself and the future as much as anything else.  In doing so, I feel about a thousand times more aware of the world around me, which has resulted in something resembling sensory overload when swapping my sweltering yet lusciously leafy 'home' on the East Coast for the friendly, crisp warmth of Chicago's parks and now the golden-earthed, tastily humid sea coast of Southern California.  For those who have never traveled alone - I cannot recommend it highly enough, and I am hugely enjoying my lone time interspersed with brief new acquaintances on a PRN basis!

Ocean Beach, San Diego, CA. Thanks to the Pacific Ocean for taking
good care of me in my absence (and more than rewarding me
during my morning runs!)
I like books about people.  I hope they help me grow and learn to see the world through the eyes of others; my patients, my friends, my family, people I see on the news, people I meet on my travels and people I have heard of in textbooks.  And I hope in trying to understand the complexities and intricacies of the human spirit, I become a better, more caring, more empathetic person - and doctor.  

Because I like people.  Even if I am a doctor who's a bit lost, surely that's worth something.  

P.S. As an antidote to the potential negativity of the 'book I liked least' - which is, of course, not to do disservice to what is a highly acclaimed bestseller written by an amazing lady! - the best book I have read thus far during this mini-American-educational-reading session was 'I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings'. WOW. Essential reading (esp for any American dwellers) for which there are not enough words to describe how much I loved Maya Angelou's PHENOMENAL prose. And now hopefully being enjoyed by its new owner :)  

Sunday, 21 June 2015

Justified - the Case for the Doctoring Gap Year

Clinton, CT.
Well blimey, here we are. My last week in the lab! Time to pack up my pipettes and hand them on to someone else, and leave Gary in the hands of my successor to find out all of his secrets. In many ways it has felt like all of the pain of starting a PhD without actually having done one - but perhaps a good omen for if/when the time comes that I've still come out smiling! But finally it is starting to feel like it's time to return to the green pastures of England, and back to my beloved stethoscope. Saying goodbye over and over again is exhausting, as is squeezing every last second with final defining moments rather than planning new ones - which most recently include sun basking in Boston's beautiful public gardens, dabbling my toes in the sea off the Connecticut coast and finally trying my first lobster roll. I am assured this is a feeling common to all temporary emigres - but that doesn't mean I won't be PHENOMENALLY sad to leave.

Boston Public Gardens, MA.
I guess it should be the time to become profound, but to be honest, it's been such an overwhelming couple of weeks, on top of, well, a VERY overwhelming year, and I think it will take me many months on my return to even begin to process it all.  So I won't try here and now!

I know that sounds overdramatic, but what the hell - I left my job, my friends, my family, and potentially my career, with many, many months of uncertainty and put all my eggs in the American basket on my own.  But hey, I did it - and it's been a blast.  I left my little island in exchange for this massive one, and created a life from scratch whilst learning to do a new job.  It was most certainly not always easy - perhaps the easiest way to describe it is that despite leaving home nearly a decade ago, having embraced backpacking at every turn and working as a doctor for two years, this is the first time I feel anything vaguely resembling An Adult (emphasis on the 'vaguely').  Living abroad means having no back-up plan when it turns out you're going to be homeless, when your bank card gets defrauded and you suddenly have no money because everything has been blocked, and dealing with every single personal and professional disaster on your own.  I have FAR from done it all correctly and perfectly but in many ways I feel ruined for life, because I think unless you've lived abroad, it's a complex bunch of emotions that are hard to explain (and I worry that makes me sound a bit of a travel snob).  Why should a junior doctor take a gap year, especially one that doesn't involve doing any clinical work?  Living abroad makes you resourceful and self sufficient, because you have to be, and extremely humble to your own fallibility.  And I made Gary, and who knows, maybe one day I'll prescribe a drug that Gary helped to identify! I think those are enough good reasons to do it (re. fallibility as per the famous report) although there are many more yet to reach the 'conscious' layers of my brain!  Of course I was never really 'alone' - I am ever grateful to some key people who have been Extremely Important along the way.
Solitude - the lot of the emigre!

Three cubed on the
High Line, NYC
Jeremy Hunt probably SHOULD be alarmed, because all the baby docs such as myself that have taken time out have certainly come to appreciate that life as a junior doctor does not have to be the exhausting treadmill we thought it might be, and that a bit of pick'n'mix career-wise makes us better, saner doctors.  Amongst my friends alone, we have covered every continent (except from Antarctica) during our medical gap years - from relatively well trodden routes to Australia and New Zealand, to being an Ebola doctor in Sierra Leone, a paediatric PhD student in India or an expedition medic in Mexico.  It has been my very great privilege to share multi-time-zone Skype chats with friends I have known nearly a decade now from medical school who have taken their stethoscopes and explored the world.  Of course, I am equally chuffed for friends who have taken the alternative adventure route of setting down roots and starting families, one of whom I will be lucky to be going to a music festival with (27 weeks pregnant!) in a few weeks' time.  Adventures come in many forms, as my jewellery collection reminds me every day, but I know I have been incredibly lucky for this to have been mine.

From Toon to Tamil Nadu and now to NYC!
Dr P and Dr P. 
Amidst all of that, this ancient creature turned three cubed with some truly excellent and special people from all parts of her British and American life - feel a bit gushingly lucky. I'm not really one for material presents, but was lucky to be gifted some lovely scribbles in notes/cards, a mountain of books and a pair of awesome-ly crazy trousers. And if that sums me up in a nutshell, I'll take that.

And with that, I'm off to spend my final days with my best guy, Gary the Clone, whilst continuing the stream of goodbyes and pack my bags for my final American adventures, this time on my own.  Normally the most sociable bee you can imagine, I actually can't wait for some quality time on my tod.  Mountain of books - check.  Paints (<100ml for the flights!) - check. Journal - check.  Crazy trousers - check. Blog pals, I'll be back: “The adventures first, explanations take such a dreadful time.”  Dreadful?  Not dreadful.  But they do take time!